Why is now a good time to pursue your dreams?
I was working on a story this morning and decided to set the main character in 2060 when she is 90 looking back a little bit on her own life, but mostly being a spectator into her son’s lives as middle aged white men in the future, which I think will present some new difficulties. I just turned 48 on Monday, and in doing my “calculations” realized that I’m only 42 years away from 90 – if I even live that long. Not trying to be pessimistic here, but my life may be more than half way over.
I’ve dreamt about being a “writer,” whatever that means, for most of my life. I actually wrote creatively when I was a kid. I still have a journal of poetry that I wrote in middle school. But, all of that stopped in junior high, as it does for most kids. For me, it wasn’t just the typical public school imposed implosion of creativity. My parents were going through and ugly divorce and my realization that I really wasn’t that important to them drove me to seek approval from everyone I came in contact with. Approval seeking isn’t exactly a recipe for creativity – that whole killing your babies thing.
Flash forward 35 years. I’m almost 50 and not as approval seeking, although it is quite the habit to break. My kids are grown and almost flown. The husband has his own stuff to think about, and I’m in a place that allows me to make some significant career changes. The universe is calling me out — time to stop dreaming and start writing. Take action. It’s like running. You can’t run long distance if you are actually thinking about running.
So, it’s now or never …………..